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.Thursday, May 31, 2007 ' 12:50 AM
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K f: NICOLE IF YOU'RE READING THIS, I GET IT IF YOU TAKE ONE OF THE GIRLS I LIKED BEFORE. ITS USUAL. I MEAN IT ALWAYS HAPPENS. I DONT GET WHY ARE YOU SO FUCKING ADAMANT IN NOT TALKIN TO ME? I BLOGGED THAT I DONT WANT TO TALK TO YOU EVER AND TODAY I FUCKING LAID DOWN MY PRIDE TO TALK TO YOU. HAVE YOU THOUGHT ABT IT!? IT WAS BECAUSE I KNEW THAT URE GG PLAY TMR, AND I DIDNT WANT YOU TO FEEL AWKWARD.

K f: BUT HERE YOU ARE, TRYING TO BE A FUCKING BITCH NY NOT REPLYIN YR OWN FUCKING MSN MSGES. I NEVER, I EMPHASIZE I NEVER LAID DOWN MY PRIDE FOR ANYONE. AND YOU ARE THE FIRST. I KNOW YOU DONT TREAT ME AS A FRIEND ANYMORE AND YES IM HURT BY THAT FACT. THE FACT THAT YOU CAN LET ME GO. NO MATTER HOW MUCH I SAID ON MY FUCKING BLOG THAT I DONT WANT YOU T TALK TO ME

K f: YOU KNOW VERY WELL THAT DEEP DOWN I STILL WANT YOU TO. IF YOU DONT THEN I DONT KNOW OUR LABEL AS BEST FRIENDS MAN. I KNOW YOUR FUCKING DISAPPOINTED IN ME. BUT HEY, I LEARNT MY LESSONS MAN. AND IF URE PUNISHNING ME THEN LET ME TELL YOU, URE DOING A DAMN GD JOB. EVERYONE ASSURES ME THAT U WILL FUCKING TALK TO ME COS U TREASURE ME AS A FRIEND!?

K f: OH, AND EVERYTIME THEY ASKED WHET URE TALKIN T ME ALR ILL SAY NO AND THEY ARE SHOCKED AT THE FACT THAT URE NOT. SO WHATS THE MATTER MAN? IF YOU REALLY HATE ME TO BE YR FRIEND, AT LEAST TELL ME AND NOT LEAVE ME HANGING IN MIDST AIR. AT LEAST I WILL STOP THINKING OF WAYS AND MEANS TO TRY TO TALK TO YOU BUT I DONT DARE.

K f: I KNOW ALL THESE SHIT WAS CAUSE I WAS IN THE FUCKING WRONG. BUT EXCUSE ME, IT HURTS ME AS MUCH AS IT HURTS YOU. IF YOU DIDNT KNOW I CRY EVERYNIGHT. OH, YOU MIGHT BE THINKING NO FUCKING BIG DEAL MAN, YOU DESERVE IT. IF URE THINKING THIS WAY THEN I DONT KNOW WHAT T SAY ANYMORE.

K f: COS NOW. I DONT KNOW WHAT AM I TO YOU. EVERYTIME WHEN ELLE SAYS SHE MISSES YOU ILL FEEL THE FUCKING ACHE IN MY HEART. DO YOU EVEN KNO THAT?! THAT LITTLE THINGS REMIND ME OF YOU. ALMOST EVERY SINGLE FUCKING THING. EVERYTIME WHEN THE REST SAYS THEY WANT TO MEET UP WITH YOU. ILL TELL THEM TO TELL ME WHEN ARE THEY GONNA MEET UP WITH YOU BECAUSE I DONT WANT YOU TO SEE ME. IM DOING YOU A FAVOUR FOR YOU

K f: BY NOT LETTING YOU SEE ME. EVERYTHING IS NOT GONNA TIDE OVER IF THIS CONTINUES. SO ARE YOU TRYING TO HINT THAT BY THE TIME I GET MARRIED WE'LL STILL BE STRANGERS!? THIS INCIDENT ALR LEFT A SCAR. WHEN I READ YR BLOG POST IN RED, THE ONE THAT ASK ME NOT T TALK T YOU, DO YKNO THAT THAT MADE ME CRY TONS. YOU ASK AME AND ZAN.

K f: EVERYTIME I TALK T AME IS YOU. EVERYTIME AME ASSURE ME THAT ULL TALK T ME, ILL TRUST HER. I SEE HOPE

K f: BUT WHEN I TALK T YOU LIKE NOW, I LOSE ALL HOPE. ITS LIKE I CANT BELIEVE WHAT AME SAY ANYMORE. THTS WHY I DONT TALK TO AME ABT YOU ANYMORE COS I DONT WANT T BE MORE DISAPPOINTED. EVERYDAY I SEE YOU ONLINE, I CLICK YOU BUT I DONT TALK T YOU

K f: I TYPE I MISS YOU I LOVE YOU BUT I DONT SEND THEM TO YOU. BECAUSE I DONT WANT TO KNOW THE REPLIES OR MORE LIKE NO REPLIES. I GO TO YOUR BLOG, I SEE PPL TAGGING. I WANNA TAG TOO. I WANNA SAY NICE LAYOUT TOO. I WANNA SAY DONT BE LAME IN YR BLOGSKIN. I WANNA SAY SO MANY THINGS TO YOU RATHER THAN THIS.

K f: I THOUGHT I WAS THE UNFORGETTABLE IN YOUR LIFE, BUT I WAS PROVEN WRONG. WHEN I WENT OVER TO KAREN'S ELLE WAS LIKE WE SHLD MEET UP WITH NIC SOON AND I JUST NODDED. SHE SAY SHE MISS YOU, AND I WHISPERED I MISS HER TOO. THEN MY MOOD CHANGES COS ILL BE THINKING ABT YOU. WHEN I READ YOUR BLOG THAT YOU'RE TIRED BEC OF TRNGS AND WORK I WANNA SAY DONT GIVE UP

K f: I WANNA CHEER U ON AND SAY "GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR MATCH" I WANNA TELL YOU THAT I STILL PREFER THE WHEN DARKNESS TURNS TO LIGHT LAYOUT. BUT I KNOW THAT DIDNT MATTERED. THEN I SEE MY PHOTOS. AND I REALISED I DONT HAVE MUCH PHOTOS WITH YOU. I WANNA BLOG ABT YOU JUS YOU AND SAY HOW MUCH THIS HAS BEEN A FUCKING TORTURE. HOW THIS IS PULLING ME DOWN.

K f: THEN WHEN I GO TOWN, ILL LOOK OVER TO STARBUCKS, HOPING THAT ULL BE THERE SO AT LEAST I CAN CATCH A GLIMPSE OF YOU. I TOOK FUCKING ADVANTAGE OF ALL OF YOU. HOW I THOUGHT U GUYS WILL COME BACK TO ME IF I FUCKING LEAVE.

K f: I HAVE TO LET YOU KNOW THAT IM NOT AS GOOD AS YOU THINK

K f: IM NOT UP TO ANYONE'S EXPECTATIONS, IM A FUCKING LIAR. I FUCKIN LIE A LOT.

K f: I WANNA AVOID TOWN ON SAT BEC I DONT WANNA SEE YOU, COS I DONT WANT TO BE A CRY BABY IN THE MIDDLE OF TOWN. I DONT WANT TO SEE YOU AND NOT ACKNOWLEDGE YOU. I DONT WANT TO FEEL THE HEARTACHE, LIFE SEEMS FINE FOR ME. BUT DO YOU THINK IT REALLY IS? YOU KNOW THAT I HIDE BEST AND ILL LET IT ALL OUT AT NIGHT. I CRY TILL MY EYES ARE PUFFY JUST FOR YOU. I CRY MORE FOR YOU THAN N.

K f: COS FRIENDS ARE FOREVER, AND YOU ARE FOREVER WHEREAS IM NOT.

AUZZIE f: NICOLE IF YOU'RE READING THIS, I GET IT IF YOU TAKE ONE OF THE GIRLS I LIKED BEFORE. ITS USUAL. I MEAN IT ALWAYS HAPPENS. <-- fuck you Then she said something like she is disappointed that i actually believe what she said. Meaning that she is disappointed that i actually believe it when she said "I GET IT IF YOU TAKE ONE OF THE GIRLS I LIKED BEFORE. ITS USUAL. I MEAN IT ALWAYS HAPPENS." So when you tell people that i ask you to fuck off, please tell them the reason why too. Now don't tell me that you don't know this words hurts. Lim karmun. this is the second time that you are saying things like this. I dont know who are you refering to this time but most probably faynat again. You know what? i think this is all so fucking lame. If people like gaya and ame can understand that i SO DID NOT LIKE YOUR EX GIRLFRIEND OR PEOPLE WHO YOU LIKED ON PURPOSE , why can't you understand that too. Call yourself my best friend. I see how that you know me so well? You are disappointed? What about me? what about you again and again saying this kind of thing about me? When we reconcile after our fist arguement. I've already told you no more this kind of nonsence from you. Now you want to bring this up again. You are not the only one who is hurting right now let me tell you this. I am not going out with ame they all because of you, i dont want to go out with them and you cannot come along, that is why i am not going out with them. I too avoided town on saturdays and stuff. If you say that you really know me, then i wonder why is it that up till now, you have yet figure out why am i not talking to you. Do you really think that it was only because of that stupid decision you made back then that i am not talking to you? Please, i am not that lame to punish myself just cos of that. I can't tell you what it is until that one fine day you are of a sound mind and is really willing to put down your pride and to admit to me already, then i'll talk to you. Right now, there is no way and no point telling you. Please, i am not trying to make you look bad, but think about it. I don't say it does not mean that i dont feel anything. You think that you are the only one who is suffering? Think again. You think when other people ask me about you, i dont feel sad? You think when i go to your blog i dont want to tag you and scold you cos your post pisses me off? Come on, think about me too. The fucking reason why i am not talking to you is because of you. But the reason why i can't tell you why am i not talkint to you, is ALSO YOU. Tell me, how comfortable and how happy can i get? You think that you are going through the worse, then think about me too!!! I understand that different people have different lavel of tolerance towards hurts and suferring. But i am just trying to tell you that i dont want you to think that you are only one. So think lim karmun, there ought to be things. And don't call me or talk to me to discuss about the things that might be the subject, i am taking it so seriously. So sorry but no friendly discussions. And i am going to warn you for the last time. You put me together with faynat again, this friendship is really off once and for all. AND THIS IS ALSO THE LAST TIME I AM TELLING YOU THIS, I DONT GOT TOGETHER WITH HOWIE, RACHEL KOH AND S JUST BECAUSE THEY ARE YOUR EX GIRLFRIEDN. YOU BETTER GET THIS RIGHT INTO YOUR HEAD. IN THE PAST WHEN I TALK ABOUT THIS TO YOU, YOU SHOWED ME THAT YOU UNDERSTAND, BUT I THOUGHT WRONG. YOU DONT ONLY THINK OF OTHER PEOPLE LIKE THIS, YOU ACTUALLY THOUGHT OF ME LIKE THIS ALSO. SHAME ON YOU LIM KARMUN. THAT THREE GIRLS ONLY HAPPENED TO BE YOUR EX GIRLFRIEND.

And if you are still thinking that faynat was in my house, i am sorry to say but you are really out of your mind.

P.S This is not all that i want to say. There is so much more but i can't.

If you think that i am being very harsh on the post. Sorry, but sorry that you don't understand.





.Tuesday, May 29, 2007 ' 7:20 AM
Heart felts.

Okayy. as i've said it earlier. That my mum's going back to hongkong. I know this will be over soon. I know that i should be old enough to be independant and live life on my own. Not to trouble my mum again. But to be honest, i am a mummy's girl. People who know me well would know about this. Although there is times that i am really irritated by my mum by her unreasonable temper or sometimes when she just throw gives us a black face to us without anything to do with us at all. But you know, times when she tolerated my shits and care for me, i dont bare to let her go back hongkong. I want to go back with her also. I wish i could go back with her and start all over again. But things like this is not up to me to decide and i cant so anything that i want to just like that. =(( Nomatter what, my mum's still the best on earth ever. Because it is true, other than my mum, noone can ever love me the way she love me.

My mum will;
Cook for me when i come back from training or game.
Will cry when bad things happened to me.
Laugh with me when i made some not-so-funny joke.
Give me money until now.
And alot more to go....

But i don't want to talk about it now.


Anyhow, game starts tmr. They are not a bad team, but i'll do my best?

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.Sunday, May 27, 2007 ' 8:22 AM
Heart felts.

Januari - Glen Fredly

Berat bebanku

Meninggalkanmu

Separuh nafas Jiwaku sirna

Bukan salahmu

Apa dayaku

Mungkin benar cinta sejati

Takberpihak

Pada kita

Reff:

Kasihku

Sampai di sini

Kisah kita

Jangan tangisi Keadaannya

Bukan karna kita bebeda

Dengarkan....

Dengarkan lagu.... Lagu ini

Melodi rintihan hati ini

Kisah kita Berakhir di januari

Bridge:

Selamat tinggal kisa sejatiku

Woo... pergilah

Back to Reff 2x






.Saturday, May 26, 2007 ' 10:16 PM
Heart felts.

I have so many things to do but i don't have even a percent of desire to do them. Just so tired that i want to lie down and sleep my life away. I know life's rather fufilling now cos i am almost working half of a day and the rest of the time i have to study and train, left with only a few hours to sleep. To be honest, i am really really tired. Both physically and mentally. It is so tiring to fight against my laziness and tell myself that "NO!! I HAVE TO WAKE UP. NO!! I HAVE TO CARRY ON. NO!! I HAVE TO CONCENTRATE AND DO MY BEST."

This have to repeat over and over again. Seriously, other than this three and rest, i have totally no time or energy to think of any other thing. I am this tired.

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.Wednesday, May 23, 2007 ' 3:56 AM
Heart felts.

Alright, so my last post was on sunday. Which is the "free-est" day of Nicoleau's life. Nothing to update actually as you should be able to predict how my day was going for this past few days.

Anyhow, yesterday was the earliest day i've gone to sleep since the first day of attachment. =)) Cos i was all beat from all attachment and studies AND training. So i've made this plan that i will go straight to bed after i reach home. As planned, i went straight to bed. But why? Just why? Why must Lex give me 7 missed call? Why must i have 4 different people messaging me just when i JUST fell asleep? Why la why? Why only yesterday night? Why only when i planned to sleep early then must call and meesage all? I have totally no idea why =))

My teacher told me once that i always have this unapprochable face. So i changed for the better and smile often. Knowing me, i'm so bubbly, how unapproachable can i get right? But today, she told me something that i'll never know how to explain and react at all...

Miss Lim: Nicole, i have observed you and realised that you tend to get excited very easily. It is good to be cheerful but sometimes, it misses out the professional image of a nurse.

Nicoleau: "(Just imagine my face).


Attachment Attachment Attachment
Training Training Training
Study Study Study

Wah!!! So interesting!!!

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.Sunday, May 20, 2007 ' 4:36 AM
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June and i look the most normal please. Celeste.....

S.H.E !!!

okayy, normal for abit

My sis's face damn funny please. I can't stop laughing.

Rather sleepy huh

I love my sister =))

I look damn funny.


I am not fat, it's the layer of shirt in there

Seen a silver teeth before?

On the way to sentosa

My pretty lady.

The origin 4

Inside R.O.M

Sister and i






.Saturday, May 19, 2007 ' 11:22 PM
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我頂啊!頭先嘟就黎打晒架啦!!點知部電惱無啦啦jam左哦,你話極唔極啊? 我打左成半粒鐘tim。好採我copy左份。哈哈哈!

anyway, 我今日想講ge係,我知我日日打中文嘟
唔係個好辦法,但係我而家仲未能夠好好低同你講野。所以暫時嘟唔會打英文架啦。我知你而家希望我可以原諒你,但係我做唔到囉。意試係話,我點可能就因為你沉晚send左個簡訊就番番以前咁呢? 係唔係先? 其實我唔覺你明白我的所為囉。就咁先啦。而d野講得多錯得多,講多傷感情。

好羨慕媽咪啊!七月就可以番hk啦,亞哥話巨嘟就黎番hk喔,信巨就奇!! 好傷心啊! 我仲要等到明年畢業。媽咪happy啦。=(( 但係媽咪話我番去就會有自己間房啦!! 野!!

yuki!! 我好掛住你啊! 就快ga la!!哈哈哈





. ' 9:22 AM
Heart felts.

We were suppose to show our normal face, But....


Happy happy smiley smiley

Yes, we are the S.H.E =))


I love this the most. The Punk Rock S.H.E. haa


Alright, so today was damn fun cos we finally had out SHE outing after a damn long time. haha. But that is an exchange for that. Cos we waited for June for The longest time ever. According to celeste.
From Nexus to the lift = 2.4 km
From the lift to Merdien = 10km.
Which is true, cos she took damn long to come and then end up leaving us to play hide and seek. -_- Walked to Heeren and then to wisma for the nail pilish session which only lasted less than half an hour i don't have nail polish remover at home. haha. Had our camwhore session as the above picture shows. haha. Outing on fri!!!!!






.Thursday, May 17, 2007 ' 10:15 AM
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LEAVE ME ALONE AND DONT TALK TO ME. COS IT IS OBVIOUS THAT I AM IGNORING YOU. SO GET THE PICTURE AND GO. I WONT TALK TO YOU UNTIL THE TENSION SUBSIDE. AND IF YOU DONT KNOW WHY AM I ANGRY, DON'T BOTHER ASKING ALSO. COS THE REASON IS OBVIOUS AND I CAN ONLY SAY THAT YOU ARE JUST INSENSITIVE TO REALISE IT. I THINK IT'S PRETTY OBVIOUS WHEN I AM ANGRY RIGHT? SO STOP TALKING TO ME AND ASK ME TO REPLY YOU COS YOU KNOW I WON'T. READ THIS AND LEAVE ME ALONE. I AM TIRED AND THE DOCTOR SAYS THAT I NEED TO REST, SO LEAVE ME ALONE AND DONT FAN ME.

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.Wednesday, May 16, 2007 ' 11:37 PM
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第三個post啦!但係無計,有d野只可以係度講。點解你扮到一d野嘟無發生? 唔同你覺的你所講ge一d嘟影響唔到我?咁你又太高咕我啦。咁你又知唔知你令到我好失望?你所做ge,所決定ge嘟會影向我呢?做人點可以咁自私架? 話點就點,我係你最好ge friend黎架!就算你有幾難受,點都應該同我講聲啦,點可以就咁走左去呢? 就為左個唔鐘意你ge女仔,就為左巨講左d無聊野,你就搞成咁。咁你無腦架?自己唔識得分辨是非咩?無該你,好心你啦。你點都比我弟了解巨份人,如果連我嘟睇得出結果,了結整件事,你又何妨睇唔出呢? 仲要繼續落去,擺到明係度溫屎黎搞ge。 唔該你唔好整日一日到黑哩晒d屎黎煩,之後要我聽你講哩晒d無經過大腦ge理論,希望我去明白又或者陪你檢屎囉。唔係我唔夠friend,而係我覺得無意思囉。跟本就唔使咁辛苦,因為一開始你就知道有今日,咁就係溫屎黎搞啦。咁我而家俾你極到火滾,唔睬你,理所當然啊。你可能對巨在乎到你連我點解會咁惱嘟唔知。

同哩我最討嚴人極惱我之後仲扮到毫無意外咁同我chat。勁反感囉!





. ' 7:00 AM
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edit/

Alright, consulting a dcotor just costed me S$38. Doctor said that my right shoulder is swollen up all the way to my neck, if i don't rest, it will go all the way down my back and it can get very bad. So she gave me 3 days MC. Damn shuang please. MC for so many days. First time in my life that i have so many days MC please. haha. But so many hours, it means that i have so many hours so study. Bio confirm pass already lo. And since they give me so many days MC. Why not they give me MC all the way until saturday? Cos i'm having attacment on saturday also. Sigh!! But it's my last day in ward 5, so it's not that bad la. Just hope that my shoulder will be better as days go on.

Who is going to be there for me, when time is bad. Like now.

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. ' 2:11 AM
Heart felts.

Basically there's nothing new about my life, cos everyday is the same routin.

Monday; Attachment, Training, studying
Tuesday; Attachment, training, studying
Wednesday; Attachment, training, studying
Thursday; Attachment, training, studying
Friday; Attachment, training, studying
Saturday; Attachment, church, Studying
Sunday; Studying, training

And every week, it's going to be the same. Not no life, but same life. But now, things might change cos something has gone wrong with my shoulder muscle, it's been hurting me since friday until now. Even turning my head hurts much. Whatever, just pray that nothing goes wrong with me so that i can continue playing netball and continue nursing. Because mama has been very unhappy with me having so much injuries due to Netball, so if she don't allow me to play means i THAT'S IT!!


hei mong lei hor yee lam ching chor. yan wai lei bei wo ge lei yau gan chek lei sai po. Yu go ngor yee gor pan yau gar chek mm bei hoi gou, ngor ying lor. Matt dou hoi gung sai, dim sun lei gau friend ar?

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.Friday, May 11, 2007 ' 8:04 AM
Heart felts.

Please, just take my right shoulder away. I hope someone can inject some medicine for me to numb my shoulder muscles. I can't rise my right hand to make it in line with my shoulder. And i have replacement tomorrow morning. Oh dear god, I have not eat anything the whole day. Okayy, i ate a suger ring today. That's all!! And 4 full bottle of water. Damn hungry la please.

Anyway, LKM MADE MY DAY!!!!!

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.Thursday, May 10, 2007 ' 8:13 AM
Heart felts.

My mum bought me a new pair of shoe today!!! Cos the pathetic nicole can't fit into the old pair of training shoe anymore. People feet still growing, how scary, can you imgaine it grow so big and i can only wear Uncle McDonald's shoe? Then i play Netball in disadvantage lo. Three feet away how far please. lame -_-

I have to sleep soon. Because my schedule for tomorrow is;

Wake up at 5
Extra lesson in school from 9-11
Rush back to AH for attachment
Leaving at 6 to go for training
Faster bath and meet Nadirah at City Hall
Accompany her till her brothe off work
Collapse on my bed

Then i need to wake up at 5 the next day again cos i have replacement on Saturday too. Then to church, then to study then i need to collapse once again. Think i will sleep chao early on sat.

Alright, till the next time i update, pray that i'm still alive.

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.Tuesday, May 08, 2007 ' 7:49 AM
Heart felts.

I owe my teacher like one whole pile of letter and i have yet written them. BIOLOGY TEST IS LIKE NEXT MONDAY AND TODAY IS ALREADY TUESDAY. KILL ME PLEASE!! No, i was only joking, no need get so excited all.

Anyway, i've got a free ride home today on a bike. OH MY!!!!!! I SWEAR I SPEEDING TOWARDS MY DEATH DAY!! Okayy, that was abit kua but you know what i mean. He was like, turning left and right -_- It was my first time ever sitting on a bike and i am so sad that it wasn't my Mr Right's bike. And he was like speeding so that he can pass before the red light. I was fainting already, and our helmet kept knocking. my helmet knock against his cos he kept turning.

I need to sleep cos tuition's at 9 tmr!!! Sleep sleep sleep!!





.Monday, May 07, 2007 ' 7:44 AM
Heart felts.

I have this person that is always pick-pointing on me. She has been commenting on everything that i do. But that was alright, cos i know that as long as i do my best and makes no mistake, i have no guilt at all. So all those things that she do, i wouldn't blog about them because it's not that big deal that i need to blog them down. But what happened today i cannot let it off just like that.

To me, Netball is my everything. I can don't do any other sports but never Netball. To be able to train under Mr Goh, i tried my very best to do well. I might not be able to play as well as many others, but at lease i trained. I never want to miss any trainings cos it means alot to me. Now you know how much Netball mean to me.

Today, I told my Clinical Lecturer(CL) that i need to leave earlier tommorow because i have training to attend. She told me that i can't do that, last friday was exceptional. So she suggested that i call up my friend tonight to ask if anyone can change shift with me. But that was so last-minute that many may be not able to do that change, i voiced it out to her and she said that it is alright, just call and try, should be ok. Alright, i take that.

I called everyone up just now and asked who can change with me and none of them is available to do so, i called my CL up and tell her the situation. This is what she said;

"See nicole, this is what i told you, this is so last minute you cannot expect people to change with you anytime you want to. I am sorry but i can't release you tomorrow, you are still reporting at 1245, all the way until 2100, not leaving early. You have to understand this. "

I was SSSSOOOOOOO pissed that i was totally speechless. Tears kept rolling down and mum was very nice to hug me and wipe my tears for me. Mummy is the best please. My mummy!!

It is ok, GOD IS WITH ME GOD IS WITH ME GOD IS WITH ME. I will be repeating this over and over again until i can see her through God's eyes.

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.Saturday, May 05, 2007 ' 11:10 PM
Heart felts.

過左甘多日你都仲未打俾我,究經想點呢? 我係話俾大家一d時間去冷靜,但係我以經到達忍無可忍的界段,我真係好想而家去你屋企同你講清楚。 但係又吾覺有眻幫助,你都知你錯係邊。啊!!!!點解我就係放吾低? 點解你應響力甘大? 大到我無辦法專心做好一件事?
人生甘復紮,死左算啦!

吾講啦,勁急尿。





. ' 8:23 AM
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你這晚來穿得最閃 絕在臉妝這樣艷
若這是場淘汰戰 真不知我怎出線
自問大家不會變 若妒忌你極膚淺
恨我仍然還好勝 別要真的高過我半邊天

若是有人贊揚你 我也應
會替你暗喜 我老實問自己
若我在各樣也沒法及你
這友情 也會悄悄考起

*如死黨有暗湧 也要各扮不懂 
若男孩同看中 情誼仍在心中 
情感彷似填充 遺留秘密不通 
姊妹有情意結 最終 還是知道輕重

*oh...i think it's funny i think it's crazy

你我有誼比天更高 手拖手走出大路
但你共男孩跳舞 好景比我更加早
羨慕著你跟他好 現在若我未得到
未免自蠶和懊惱 令我小小憎你太風騷

舊日我和你 沒有嗌過
交暗裡縱賽跑 發過誓別絕交
亦會和你夜半談笑睡覺
所有人 卻永遠怕比較

REPEAT**

oh...i think it's funny i think it's crazy
oh...i think it's funny i think it's crazy





.Thursday, May 03, 2007 ' 7:25 AM
Heart felts.

GNOR MOU YE HOU GUNG





.Tuesday, May 01, 2007 ' 8:00 AM
Heart felts.

For now, i am speachless. I am left with nothing to say. Maybe i am still angry and disappointed. But i know soon, i will be back to normal and everything will be in the past. So now, we should be leave each other alone and cool down. Sorry i know i should have understood how you feel but seriously up till now, i still cant. Just give me time to think and calm down.

Please, i am doing all this becasuse i don't want our friendship to end just cos of this or get affacted. I am doing my best. You are someone rare, so i don't want to lose you. From now till then, sorry.

P.S. You don't need to MIA. But if you have to, take me with you too.

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Nicole Christine Au
Eleven December 1987
Hongkonger


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