Ok! Please ignore the previous post about the job cos it's a total cheat please. And dont ask about it cos it's so embarrassing and i don't ever wanna talk about it.

So anyway, as i mentioned, due to the absent of my presence. I had decided to organize an advance birthday party which is a bbq session. Location and timing has yet confirmed but it will be either friday or sunday next week. I'll keep an update so stay noticed.

As this will be my 21st birthday, i really want it to be done the way i want it to be done. So, attendants have to follow this two simple rule.

1. The dress code for this party is Beach Wear.
-Ladies are expected to don sundresses or halter/singlet with shorts and flip flops.
-Gents/Bungs are expected to don singlet or a tee with berms with flip flops.
(Suggestion mentioned would be preferred. Try to follow so to have fun! It would be much appreciated. )
*IMPT! DO NOT COME IN WITH TEE AND FBT OK! I'LL SHAOLIN AND MUAY THAI YOU!

2. Please come with a present. A packet of Mix and ___ gumies would be nice too! Just dont come empty handed. Cos people here 21st birthday ah, dont get any key never mind but if dont have present i VERY mind ok!!! And anyway, people whom i invited, be honoured. =]

P.S. This party is also to bring my friends together so that we can have fun and chat to catch up. I mean we all have our own life and stuff so we hardly keep up with each other's life. If you think that this is not important so it is ok not to come. By all means do so, cos after all i'm the birthday girl. I don't need to beg you all to come. This party i am only inviting people i appreciate and people whom i had fond memories with. It is a happy thing, so if it is a chore for you to come or whatsoever stuff, really, don't need to come. As i said, i dont want to make it like as though i have to beg you to come. If i am not as important that you can't push aside your agenda that day for my 21st, i'll take it as it is. =]

SO people! I will post another post tmr, keep looking @_@. hee

Yay yay yay yay!

I am so excited about this new chapter of life? Everything's gonna start all over again. I am going to work hard and learn as much and as fast as i can. I so can see how challenging it is gonna be. YAY!!

So today is an eventful day

1) Got a call from office and were asked to go down for interview. I kinda want to decline it cos we were suppose to gym today but after fighting with my consciousness i decided to say yes before i pause for too long on the phone. Informed mum about it and she decided to be nice to treat me to lunch at Beri nice kopitiam. I ordered Dumpling noodles and only managed to finish a quarter of the portion. Head down to Aljunied and was early for half and hour. Was ushered into the Manager's (I think) room and sat for interview. I guess she did it many times cos everything she said sounded so recorded. HAHA! So bad. Oh yeah, she looked DAMN familiar and i can't help but keep thinking she's from the Lesbian side. Alright, so i was pronounced hired after 16minutes. Very good! -CLAPS-

2) Cos Lex and Sharon refused to give me any kind of respond, so i start heading down to RP at 1421 thank you. Reached Woodlands at about early 3 plus when baby ends at 4. SO! Sat there and start human observation. Rp do have weird people.

3) Baby came out 15minutes or so earlier =] Concluded Ikea the next destination, we (more of like myself) decided to take a bus so to man man yo to the Alexandra's branch. Hee. Had dinner and baby sure can eat alot. Oops, she's gonna open her eyes wide when she read this. Hi baby! -waves- And so, we started looking around planning how our house would look like and stuff.

I so love the feeling of being able to stroll Ikea with baby by my side. Together we decided and voice out how we want this to be done how we want that to be placed. =]] I really feel that this is the real start of my career. My first official job in my life. =] I am going to work hard so to shorten the wait to have our home. I can't wait to move to bkk, i can't wait to have baby in my arms every night when i go to sleep. heee

WHAT'S WITH EVERYTHING COMING AT ONE GO? WHY IS MY BOSS REFUSING TO PICKING UP MY CALL AND GIVE ME MY PAY? I DONT HAVE A FUCKING CENT NOW AND I FEEL DAMN PATHETIC! I DON'T EVEN HAVE MONEY TO STEP OUT OF CLEMENTI! THAT MAKES ME NOT ABLE TO FIND A JOB!!!

STACEY CHOSE TO END OUR FRIENDSHIP BECAUSE SHE FEELS THAT I AM IGNORING HER AND AVOIDING HER. I THOUGHT SHE WAS ANGRY THEREFORE I DONT WNAT TO BOTHER HER WHEN SHE'S PISSED. NOW SHE WANTS TO END IT! SHE WANTS TO END OUR FRIENDSHIP! FUCK! I AM NEVER THAT IMPORTANT TO HER AS SHE IS TO ME. 4 YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP GONE LIKE THIS. IF THIS IS WHAT YOU THINK IT'S BEST, FORGET IT THEN!

I WANT TO BOOK A CHALET FOR MY BIRTHDAY SO THAT MY OTHER FRIENDS CAN CELEBRATE WITH ME. BUT I AM SO FUCKING USELESS I DONT HAVE A JOB I DONT HAVE MONEY CHALET IS FULLY BOOKED. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG?

I WANT TO BOOK A HOTEL ROOM IN SENTOSA SO MY GIRLFRIEND AND I CAN SPEND A DAY ON OUR OWN TO CELEBRATE OUR THIRD MONTH AND MY 21ST BIRHTDAY. BUT I DONT EVEN HAVE A JOB NOW HOW AM I GOING TO PAY FOR IT?

I DONT KNOW WHAT AM I GONNA DO! ONE MOMENT SHE WANTS ME TO GO BACK ONE MOMENT SHE WANTS ME TO STAY! SO WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT ME TO DO? I WANT TO DECIDE MY OWN LIFE BUT YOU ARE NOT ALLOWING ME TO! I WANT TO STUDY BUT YOUR INDECISIVE IS STOPPING ME! NOW I DONT KNOW WHAT CAN I DO FOR MY FUTURE!

RIGHT AT THIS TIME I REALLY REALLY WANNA SLASH MYSELF BUT I DONT WANNA BE STUPID. GOD WHAT IS FUCKING WRONG WITH MY LIFE? WHY MUST EVERYTHING COME AT THE SAME TIME? WHY DONT YOU JUST TAKE MY LIFE AND END IT? THIS SUCKS!!!!!

I JUST WANT YOU TO HUG ME NOW AND TELL ME EVERYTHING'S GOING TO BE OK! WHY ARE YOU NOT HERE? WHY ARE YOU BEING SO COLD TO ME?!!!!!![

http://www.handwritingwizard.com/analysis.php

Nicoleau is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes.

Nicoleau will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Nicoleau an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other.

When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Nicoleau is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story.

Nicoleau is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.

Nicoleau tends to write a bit smaller than the average person. When a person's letters are small and tiny, this indicates an ability to focus and concentrate. This character trait is a huge asset in careers like math, science, race car driving, and flying planes. However, if Nicoleau writes tiny all of the time, she will also display characteristics of someone who is socially introverted. Nicoleau will often sit on the sideline and watch others get the attention at parties. she might be willing to open up and be warm, but only in small groups or a select group of people. When she is busy working on a project, it is common for all other noises and distractions to just fade away and her ability to focus is incredible. When she says "she didn't hear you", she really means, she didn't hear you.

When Nicoleau expresses an opinion on a issue she will stick to that opinion, and probably will not change her mind. In other words... Nicoleau is stubborn. When she is wrong about something that she has decided upon, she will have trouble admitting she is wrong. Changing Nicoleau's mind can be very difficult. Once Nicoleau makes up her mind, she doesn't want to be confused with the facts!

Nicoleau will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!

Because Nicoleau has sharp needle pointed 'm' and 'n' humps, she has a very sharp mind. She instantly sizes up situations, making instant decisions. She thinks and evaluates circumstances very rapidly. Many people with this type of mind are geniuses, thus she may be seen as highly intelligent. Nicoleau is often irritated by slow talkers or slow thinkers. If she drives, she gets irritated by slow drivers in the fast lane. She quickly becomes bored when being taught on the level of the slowest student in class. She may be on problem number three when the rest of the class is on problem one. Nicoleau is curious and very active. In fact, in school she might have been a trouble maker because she thought so much faster than the other kids, she finished her work first, thus having plenty of time on her hands to make trouble!

Nicoleau's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Nicoleau that she wasn't a great and beautiful person, and she believed them. Nicoleau also has a fear that she might fail if she takes large risks. Therefore she resists setting her goals too high, risking failure. She doesn't have the internal confidence that frees her to take risks and chance failure. Nicoleau is capable of accomplishing much more than she is presently achieving. All this relates to her self-esteem. Nicoleau's self-concept is artificially low. Nicoleau will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because she is afraid that if she makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Nicoleau to plan too far into the future. She kind of takes things on a day to day basis. She may tell you her dreams but she is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud she speaks, look at her actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Nicoleau is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken.

Nicoleau is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

Nicoleau is very self-sufficient. She is trying not to need anyone. She is capable of making it on her own. She probably wants and enjoys people, but she doesn't "need" them. She can be a loner.
For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Nicoleau has left lots of white space on the right side of the paper. Nicoleau fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. If this is true, then Nicoleau has an unhealthy relationship to the past and has a fear of moving forward. The right side of the page represents the future and Nicoleau seems unwilling to face the fear of getting started living now and planning for the future. Nicoleau seems to be clinging to past events and spending lots of time thinking about what happened. It would be best to leave the past behind and move on. Stop crowding that left margin.

Nicole Christine Au
Eleven December 1987
Hongkonger