Woke up by all of the throwing or heavy stack of magazines and my mum's stomping of feet. That's the typical way of her to wake me up. Typically annoying.

So.. Went through some of the old songs and poems i composed. It is funny when i read them and looked back on those days. How exaggerating i was and i bet most kids that age takes love like this, cos always thinking it is the last or the most beloved relationship. While some elders come along and say that this is nothing much and it is not worth our tears? We'll flare cos we hate it when they think that nothing is that important for us etc... But now, it all makes sense.

So yeah, this is a tribute to my foolish of youth.

This is a song i wrote for this girl i'd been in a relationship with for one and a half year, without knowing how she looked like. But i loved her beyond the looks and the number of lies she told.

You are an angel to me
I'm in love with a girl
That i shouldn't had fall for
Cos she wasn't the right one for me (at that time)
My mind is full of this girl
I'd never thought i would feel this way

Chorus
You are an angel to me
You are the sunlight that i ever need
You walked in my life and brighten it with your smile
You are the air that i breathe
You've given me strength to live
You're that wonderful girl that i wanna spend with
For the rest of my life

But now things had change
You've made miracles in my life
Cos you gave me a chance to be with you
You're that wonderful girl, that i ever want.
I wish, you will stay right by my side, Forever
Cos i, don't ever wanna leave you

Chorus
You are an angel to me
You are the sunlight that i ever need
You walked in my life and brighten it with your smile
You are the air that i breathe
You've given my strength to live
You're that wonderful girl that i wanna spend with
For the rest of me life


And this is a poem i wrote out of desperation and frustrations cos i was overly hurt by my then girlfriend who apparently doesn't treats me right.

Nights and nights she's waiting for your call
Thought she know you won't call at all
But all she want is to hear your voice
Even thought it's just for awhile
She has always wanted to say how much she loves you
Telling you how much she wants to hold you in her arms all night

How she wish she could have your kiss forever
You may not love her as much
But in her heart that's all that she wants
And your love is all that she needs

Her conversations may not be as interesting as your friend's
It may be all about her friends and life
She may laugh at her own jokes
She may not be listening to you attentively
But in her heart
There's always you sitting there

Others may come along and want to take her away
Telling her this is not the way
Not the way a relationship should be
But how could they expect her to listen
When all she knows is to love you

Sometimes things may not go the way you expect it to be
But you still gotta accept it
She may thinks all couples is loving and caring for each other
But her relationship is exceptional
But yet she didn't give up and walk away
Cos all she wants is to love you and be there for you
So that's the reason why she chose to stay

So please
Don't leave her hanging like this
If what she wants is not what you can give
Then tell her
"I'm sorry, but i hafta leave."

Nicole Christine Au
Eleven December 1987
Hongkonger