I dont know man, i know i have always wanted to go back. That's like what i have always wanted since i came here. The plan was to go back next year yes, it has been the talk since months ago. But how was i suppose to know that this time round things is coming true? I mean we talked about going back since 2000 but 8 years later we are still stuck at this pathetic dot! But little do i know after penting for this whole of years, i am finally going back out of all time, now. Why can't we go back like, when i am single and free? When i have no plans at all? Why now? Why only when i thought my life is turning good and when i finally found someone? I don't the money and ability to stay in Sinagpore on my own! So what the fuck am i gonna do?????? THIS IS SERIOUSLY FUCKED UP!!!

As we stroll along together
Holding hands walking all alone
So in love are we two
That we don't know what to do
So in love

As we walk by the sea together
Under stars twinkling high above
So in love are we two
No one else but me and you
So in love
So much in love
So in love
So much in love

We stroll along together
I tell you I need you oh so much
I love, I love you my darling
Can you tell it in my touch?

As we walk down the aisle together
We will vow to be together till we die
So in love are we two
Just can't wait to say i do
So in love
In a world of our own
So in love
Are you and i

Baby, I hope you realize
That you mean so much to me
You're everything I ever wanted in a woman
To touch, to feel your body close to me
I just want to hold you in my arms forever
I love you baby... touch

OHMYGOD BABY!!! DON'T DEN DEN DEN ME NOW!!!

Alright, Sooooo. hmm, yes, blog.

Ohmygod all that i can think of now is the den den den msn alert and nothing else!!

DEN DEN DEN DEN DEN DEN DEN DEN!! OMG!!

Anyways, i have been thinking alot recently about my life and christina's life. I don't know what she think but she is definitely in the picture. She is seriously the second girl out of so many that i thought of marrying. I know all this is too early to say, but i don't know, it just feels so right whenever i am with her and it feels like we've been together for God knows how long but the fact is that it is only the 2nd week? HAHA. Oh dear, but that is not the point of cos.

I mean my point is, i felt so good, like it is really GOOD. I can be whoever i am and i feel so free when i am with her. I can do, say, sing whatever and whenever i want and not feel ashamed or any sort like being afraid that she will be disgraceful being seen with me. Nope, none of this sorts. I think this is so important, being yourself with your partner, that is definately true love =))

Ok, i can't hold it any longer, I've got to go, pee. TATA

Cos here in my heart
There's a picture of us
Together forever =))

When dusk sets in, we'll be laying on the couch out in our Bali balcony. =))))

Finally, i understands "give and take". When your partner is true to you, she wouldn't just keep taking, she will also give. Doesn't expect a return yet wanna keep giving. This is what love truly means.

She catches my breath, she blows my mind =))

你们很烦耶，如果要翻译的话那我打国语干屁嘞？我不管啦，明不明白你家的事啦！哈哈，

你们所需要知道的是，我们过得很好， 那就够了 =））

我有好多野想讲，但系又唔知点讲又或者从边度开始。可能我怕讲左出黎有d事会改变。我知道我地发展得好快，我都想慢d, o甘样我地至可以系一齐耐d. 但系呢个习惯我改唔到，我等唔切。但系又惊会后悔当初唔忍耐d. 听过同经历过数万次o甘既冲动，而次次都系分手收场。正所谓，黎得快，散得快。我好怕我地会有同样结果。所以，我而家放慢脚步，慢慢一步一步o甘了解你。我有成2年无拍过托，好多野我已经唔识得去做。唔好讲以前的我，以前d生活我马马虎虎幢下幢下o甘过，因为我以前无用过心去了解同对待所以应该说既做既我都会做。觉得系应该既，所以无心都会做，之后伤害唔少人，成为花心汉。


所以我而家省系想做好自己，做好你既女朋友。我想好好地同你简简单单o甘过日子，感觉上o甘样先可以长久。所以有d野我唔讲我唔做并唔系我唔细心，而系我唔敢，我唔知系咪出自真心，我怕我会hurt到你。所以，俾d时间我啊，我会收拾好心情，好好反省。因为要俾我就要俾你最好最真实既，ok?

我唔锺意睇到你唔开心，因为我唔识得tam人，我好惊讲错野，好白痴。=（（ sorry, 我真的怕。你系第一个对我o甘好同爱我既人，所以我好在乎你对我既睇法。虽然你话你爱我系因为我系我，但系我始终好concious. 都系因为我紧你姐~ =））

点都好啦~ 我真系觉得自己好lucky我有你做我gf. ilu 老婆=）））

Anyway, Christina is so pretty now compared to the past. HAHA!

都系Iris同我 =））

区家。

我训o既床。

个厅。

日日行去饮茶的路。

Nicole Christine Au
Eleven December 1987
Hongkonger