You know this is for you.

I totally agree when you said we should get back together cos whatever we had together was great. How could i agree less since that's what we both always say and we know best ourself how true this is. But honestly, i don't know how far this can bring us to. I told you i want to settle down and no more fooling around. I feel that, we are just trying to pick up from where we stop and continue and refusing to consider the fact that everything had change. Back then, we and i are cool shit. Now, we can't be like the past anymore.. There is so much more to consider like, peers, future, parents, financial and yada yada. You and i have different aspect so it really takes alot of us to really go into this long relationship. I know this will be the same if i be with a guy but honestly, there isn't so much to think about then. AHHH. fuck it. I have totally no idea how to bring it out in a way that you can see it from my point. To make things simple. I did not reply your messages and phone calls is because i have been really thinking about us and conclude that i am not really keen on getting back. NOT because i don't love you anymore, but don't want to spoil what we had. I feel that in our case, once is enough. I love you so much because we've gone through things together and we're back to friends again so i so cherish you.

P.S. Nomatter i overcome my fears and doubts towards guys or not, i think i'll still remain straight. Really really wish you understand i do love you as a friend. Just like S. =))

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Nicole Christine Au
Eleven December 1987
Hongkonger