So, a mixture of uncertainty and frustrates in my head. Thing is, recently, i have been thinking about my job (nursing). Nothing happened, i am just thinking about it, giving it a thought IF that's REALLY what i wanna do. I always wanted a 9-5 job or at least a less stressful occupation. So why i chose Nursing instead of some other courses? Alright, not pushing blames around, just stating the maybes. Nursing was actually the only course my brother and i was discussing about, like how far i can go and yada yada. I myself isn't sure if that's really what i wanted but i decided to go with it since it sounded great and most probably the most Noble job an ITE student could obtain. But as i said before, Nursing isn't like any other course/job. You can't do it without the passion and patience. If you are not mature or stable enough, is is very difficult for you to sustain. However, why am i talking about all this and that? Because i realise i don't have the patience and maturity to go further. I find it a chore and it sucks when you can't feel for the patient. I always feel that i am suited for something else, like photography or something. Something not as stressful and formal. I don't know, this sucks. I can't talk about it to my family members cos i don't think they will understand and all that they might think about is that i am finding excuse not to go school or i am too old to waste anymore time.

But honestly, i am feeling very tired. Despite the fact that i can talk day and night about the hospital, it's just talks i realised. I kept wanting to venture to another side of the field to experience. I mean, for all you know, nursing may be the lease thing that suits me (as many think so) or vice verse. I don't know man. I hope i can look into my future so i will know what to should choose.

Nicole Christine Au
Eleven December 1987
Hongkonger