1st.
I don't need a ring nor a necklace
I don't need money to quench my thirst
There is only one source
To fulfil my hunger, my thirst and emptiness
Please don't shut cos it will hurt like a deep cut
You're so adorable, that i can't fight the urge to hold
So would you please ____ __
Give us a chance to see
The love we're yet seed.

2nd
Oh dear! I need grace
Somehow i can't fight the craze
The motion of her has been puton play
I have been looking her way
Hoping i could look at her and gaze

But i know nothing about her
She doesnt even know how it occured
It must be absurb, to know i'm in love
With this girl i dreamt with in a concert

How do i let her know, each day my love will grow
And hoping she like it so
I don't care how cliche or what others say
Please hear what my heart has got to say
"____ __, i'm so in love with you"

3rd
You may think a thousand ways about me, thinking i might did it to someone else before, or you are just some other girl whom i like. Right now, i want to assure you that you are the only only one i am putting effort in. I dont want to compare you with my ex-es. Because i know i am totally different now. I'm all in a serious mode. You are not just some other girl that i like, you are way more special than that. There are many girls whom i find possibilities with, but none of them triggers my motivations to take a step further with them. Because i can't sense the happiness i'll get. But i always picture you and me. Please don't freak out, in a sweet and proper way tho. For a certain reason, you gave me this comfort which i can't find on any other people. You are the only one i always picture holding hands or having dinner with. Just the simple-and-sweet feeling. I might be thinking too much on my own that you might like me too. If you do, I'm on my way to cloud 9 now, but if that's jsut the way you are, i hope to bring you closer to me, so tha ti can experience more of this comfort. Maybe there is some differences between us, buti hope we could put them aside, because when we are together, i just want that relac and crazy love to be present. I just want to be with you.

4th
How can i combat all the words i wanna say into one short and simple sentence? Will "I'm crazy about you", or "Can i hold you?" express the exact amount of anxiety in my heart? Could you experience the full impact of my desires? To be honest, i wasn't at far east yesterday. I was in PS and i alighted at orchard. Because i want to go home with you. I wanted to walk you home, but i don't know how should i offer, so i jst sat there, stuck on the chair. BUt the journey itself was enjoyable. I knwo this is silly but i can't stop smilling. UNtil waiting for your reply for a long time. What should i do? I can't call you, that would be freaky. But i can't msg you again neither, that would be so annoying. Oh god, what should i do? Probably there isn't anything to do huh? And that annoys the most.

5th
Maybe this is why people say "Love makes one lose control" This is so true. Day and night i can't stop thinking about you and i even dreamt about you. This is totally crazy. How long can i hold this? I am hoping to do my confession on valentine's day. But i was thinking, cani wait till then? I can hardly control my won emotions now and at any moment i just want to scream!! Ob viously i can't do that and i won't do that. And my other concern, what if you don't like me? Then i can't ask you that question.

Can't find an excuse to start a text message, so i just daze in the air and stare. I wonder what more can i say because i', starting to repeat myself, which wouldn't make much sense to you. But everyday, I just want ot write, write down every single detail of my condition, HO ei think of youat all times, how emo i can get just thinking of you. Then it continues into my dream, which causes me to wake up later cos i want to continue those dreams. PLease don't find me strange cos that's the only way i can "see" you.

Now i think again, what if you rejects me since you have never been in a relationship before and i'm so sure there's people liking you before. So since you wouldn't accept others, i wouldn't be that special case. Then i want to get close to you so that at lease you my company would make you feel comfortable. But, other than working, i don't have a good reason to ask you out right? And why would you go out with my anyway.

Ever since you never reply me that night, i didn't smile much. It was like, i don't want to do anything. I don't even want to move. That is how it was like. And it is still going on. Other than i'm actually taking the effort writing it down.

____ __!! Can't you message me? Is it like a sign telling me it is impossible?

My god!! I so want to get drunk and not htink about anything.

6th
You're not replying me at all. This is so annoying . Why are you not replying? Are you finding me a nuisance now? And that you're understanding why am i messaging you all the time? Yes, as a friend and a colleage, it is rather irritation to message all the time. I can't blame you but neither can you nlame me. I just want to talk to you, to laugh and stuff. But you're not replying me at all. So you always reply so slow? Or it is just me that you ain't replying?

How can i sleep peacefully at anight? What should be done to reframe myself from checking my phone? Shall i just give all out and just tell you that i like you? Or should i actually just stop bothering you? But how can i give up so easily? You're rare and i want to cherish you. I don't exactly know what i want, since you've never been in a relationship before, i don't want to ruin you by making you crook and i don't really want your first relationship to be with a girl. Oh my god!! This is getting crazier each day and all i want is just to see you reply.

7th
One moment wih you
that is all i need
To confess my heart
And let it be known

It's becoming oblivious that i can't hold on anymore
Can't stand the fact i'm not the one you;re missing
Yet you're all i can think of every single moment

I don't like the way i get upset cos you dind't reply
I don't like the moment i wanna flare cos i get so frusrated
Why cant you feel it that i want youre responce?

If a message from you can brighten me up,
Would you fo it?
If a walk back to your house could make me jump with joy,
Would you allow me?
I f a nod from you could make me the happiest one,
Would you accpet it?

I have a ton loads of questions to ask
But i'm so afraid that i t would send you away
I'm feeling exhausted from all the thinking of possibilities
Just an assurance, that's all i need
But i can't even find a chance to talk to you
Then how can i make my first move?
I just wan to talk to you
I just want a conversatoin
So i can tell you how i'm handling all this affections

This is what i wrote for her. There's actually many things i planned. LIke, how i should i ask her out on valentine's day to watch P.S I love you. I think i should stop here. It's making me feel damn terrible. The thought of it, i can't hear her name, i can't see her name and i can't see her, cannot even think of her look. All this is driving me crazy.

Nicole Christine Au
Eleven December 1987
Hongkonger