I wonder if anyone would ever stay in my life for long or, does anything last for long? Nothing in my life last for long. Be it friendship, relationship or passions, it can't hold on for long. Where's the problem and what's the matter? Am i the problem?

I read through my previous post and diaries, then i try to play back those days. Which are the days i hang out with yada yada, when was it that i have been alone for that period of time.

Maybe i'm just C.M.I to the max. That is why i'm a failure in friendship and relationship. I can salvage nothing. Nothing with me last long.

Who say so that as long as you are true and loving, love will come to you? Who says it's true? I say it's fake, it's a lie and it's a trap. It makes you give in all of you and you get hurt in return. When time is up, love will walk out the door and there will be nothing you can do. I've experience it all.

That is why i always say to myself, the best is still to believe in yourself and rely on yourself. For you won't be disappointed or discourage when things don't turn out the way people promised it to be.

You just shouldn't trust in anyone other than yourself. I'm serious.

Nicole Christine Au
Eleven December 1987
Hongkonger