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.Thursday, December 20, 2007 ' 10:27 PM

Heart felts.

I'm down with cough and flu and a slight sore throat. All passed by Faynat other than the cough. All her fault.

I haven been blogging right? I know. haha. so lame.

Don't know what happened to me but i am very very reluctant in blogging nowadays. Actually i've tried blogging a few times but somehow it went wrong while posting. So ain't my fault.

Anyhow, 17 days to school starts. That is really fast. Don't know why but i'm not excited about it at all. Maybe it is the fact that i wouldn't be in class JN0701E anymore, instead, i will be classmates with some other younger people. Oh god, let there be older people. Most importantly, not so much of malays please. Like my previous class, how many malays? and how little chinese? Oops.

Anyway, bangkok photos will be uploaded when i get it, which will be quite sometimes later.

.Wednesday, December 12, 2007 ' 12:51 AM

Heart felts.

Happy birthday to me!! Yes i am officially 20 this year. I hope i could act my age. Actually honestly frankly speaking, i am not childish, just that i am sensitive and i voice out almost everything. Maybe that makes people feel that i can't think on my own and stuff. But another actually, though i ask how, and seek for solution most of the time, the actual fact is not that i don't know the solution, it is just that i am lazy to make up a choice on my own so i would like to drag someone down to join my sorrow. HAHA. Come to think about it, i don't speak when i'm really in trouble and seeking for solution. I don't move nor react to anything when i'm really sad or facing a problem.

I don't like to be emo and i can't be, that's not in my nature. So therefore, you see me jumpy and acting crazy most of the time. That is me, laughters, carefree. But i guess as you grow up within the years, you're losing those things. The purity that used to resident in us were gone. The world is forcing the them all out of us. Probably i've lose them to the crooks and wickedness of temptations in the world. Now that i realised how much i needed them and misses them, that is why i am act a little childish at times, but take note, i am not.

Now, i'm living like my age. I have to get down to business. Friends my age or my batch, some is already in uni, and look at me, what am i doing? ITE Year 1? Hahaha, what a joke i am.

Whatever it is, It's all about birthday that i want to say. A little off track, sorry. HAHA

Friends, i love you guys as much as i said i do. My birthday wouldn't be as enjoyable if you guys weren't here with me. I hope friendship could bring us far. i really really wish.

People who never wish me for whatever reason, face the wall and reflect. hahahah

.Friday, December 07, 2007 ' 7:03 AM

Heart felts.

As soon as a blink of an eye, one year is coming to an end. So fast, 2007 is ending soon. I remember last year, i said i hated 2006 and i would welcome 2007 will wide open arms. But as least expected, 2007 is even worse compared to 06.

Last year, i am still in secondary school, still enjoying myself, still having enougjh time to mug and play at the same time. Still going for training actively. I have the clique to spend my day with. Although it is only school, serene and town. But what we shared was incredible. I still have my best friend with me, crapping and laughing at the lamest thing. Doing nothing was our hobbie. I still had my long hair, although i cut it off due to that stupid mid-year (HAHA). Despite the fact that i was hurt by two girls who shared the same name, was kind of cheated by a girl whom i crazily crush, did not have a birthday party, i still miss 06.

Look back to 07's jan til now, i think my life is screwed. School word was unexpectedly tough for me, Clinical Lecturer was sure a pain in an ass. I lost good result to Netball an vice versa. I lost my best friend for lame reason. Although i have fayant as my very close and great friend, but she's going back to indo soon, which means i'm left with nothing again. Maybe i'm not meant to have best friends. Anyhow, I don't really like 07. I guess i have been emo-ing more than gladness.

Not that i mean anything by saying all this, i am just merely thinking about it.

From what we used to own, the chemistry we built, the bonding we accuminated, are now gone with pride and ego. It is general knowledge that friendship always last longer than relationship but we still let go of the will to substand this friendship. I know that noone can replace that occupacy you have in my heart. Because noone can even bring me the joy and carefree-ness i had when i was with you. And i know that no matter how much i loath you, you are still as important. Maybe what we are now are better for us.

I don't know when can our friendship last till, i feel that we are both trying hard to hold on to that closeness we used to have but i guess it is pretty obvious that we don't have that anymore. As much as i try, i feel that you are not putting in any effort in doing it. But no matter what, i will still be living up to my promise and do what i have always been doing. Like how i have been loving you. =))

Somehow you have influenced me into behaving in certain way. It isn't in my nature, so i guess after you're gone i will slowly transform into my old form and back to the old nicole again. And then i will start missing you like crazy cos i realise that many things remind me of you and when no one irritate me and no one talking-turn-shouting into my ear even when we are so close, no one accompany me at night or wherever i want to go. All this memories i will never forget.

Someone said before that success is not about how many friends you have, but it is about how many people remember your birthday and bother to wish you "Happy Birthday."

Uh oh, Birthday blues again.

.Tuesday, December 04, 2007 ' 7:46 AM

Heart felts.

Ney's birthday was fun!! WOOHOO!! Not much pictures taken tho. I will upload it when i collect more of it.

Anyway, it has been busy and tiring for the past few days. Maybe not to the extreme but still quite tired. HAHA.

I was suppose to wake up at 0730 yesterday to get ready and reach Tsu's house by 9 but SORRY!! Woke up at 9!! But i reach at about 0950 so we went to collect the stuff and went back to her house. On the way, i was telling her about my dream, that i dreamt of the dance that we were teaching the day before. HAHA. Siao si ren i tell you.

Waited for everybody's arrival and we start doing Ney's birthday present. Naomi was damn jix i tell you. VERY JIX. She and Faynat can take part in Ji Dong Da Tiao Zhan already. (Like there's such show).

BBQ was fun but i couldn't eat much cos i was damn full. They were complaining that i was lazy, but the thing is, they took everything that was suppose to be done and there wasn't anything left for me to do. So cannot blame me.

Surprised Ney with games to her presents. Hope she likes it (which i think anyone would like it).

Ok, i am falling asleep soon. My eyelid's getting heavier and heavier. I will update the photos soon. Night world!!

.Sunday, December 02, 2007 ' 6:26 AM

Heart felts.

Zouk-ed with Tiffane and Minzhen.

Hello Orange =))

Lou, i miss you please!!

This is the only time i feel that my brother and i look alike. HAHA

Hello, pals.

I love my Buddy!!

Monsters??

I think Ney is damn cute here la. HAHA

See how high i am!!

Sorry was damn bored. HAHA.

Meet my CG-mate, May!!

Candles of promises.

Morning, Don't question my face.

Ohhh, My uh hmm and i. HAHA!!!

My goodness, SHE'S DAMN CUTE LA PLEASE!! Just like a BAOBEI.

Why la mummy? Bored?? haha

Hey you my BEST friend =)))

She wants me to join her. Fine.

Er, this is the horse from Turf Club.

My cousin, Long long. He is 12. Goodness la.

d his brother, Shen shen. 8 years old. ...

I am so so tired please. That i could just fall asleep right after closing my eyes. Have been involving in quite many things now. Just like tmr, Ney's bdae!! Olip Camp, Bdae chalet and Bangkok trip. My goodness. My mum just asked me if i want to help out in the Tzu Qing's camp and i told her "no, don't bother me." I am not being rude, just tired and want to rest. Badly want to. AMEN!!

Just want to upload some photos.