Let's just give a quick sum up of events for this past few days. Basically working almost everyday in Cine. Off on wed and it was an outing with Kayminn, Ney, Debbie, Annabel and Becca. Sakae-d and i was damn full. Being as merciless and they always are, they decided to play Black jack. Losers have to eat up udon or sushi. I swear i was pregnant of sushi. Spent a wonderful time doing stupid stuff in Sentosa-without-sand. (According to Debbie). haha

Another off day will be today. Off work at 5 and went Vivo to meet Faynat and peeps. Got my stuff at Giant and went to Sentosa-without-sand to play cards again. Joined Mum and Matthew for dinner and Thai Xpress. Coolios please. Hahaha. THAILAND!!! BANGKOK!!! Anyhow, was suppose to watch Movie but we couldn't find a movie we three agree to so we decided to walk around ONLY. Not spending of money. HAHA. And here i am, Home. So comfortable. I want to slack!! No no, i NEED to slack. I deserve to slack. haha.


I feel that God have been trying to tell me something but i couldn't hear it clearly enough. The voice is muffled which cause me not catching anything. I know what is it about, but not know what to do about it. Because i felt that i tried many times and it failed. I don't want to try again because i don't know if i am ready for it or do i want it. I am afraid that i will hurt that person again. Sometimes i know that i am just over reacting and stuff? Sometimes i say things i don't meant and don't say what i feel. It is difficult to say it out, but i know it's true.

Dear Lord father,
I pray that you would let me feel your touch, let me know that i have you always. Remind me that i have you to lean on, you will give me courage and strenght. I feel that distance between us and i know that i am not making effort in improving it. Lord, help me in the willingness to read the bible and pray everyday, so that i can hear you. I know you have something to say to me. God, i need grace and patience. I need to feel secure. I need YOU.

Labels: Be secure

Nicole Christine Au
Eleven December 1987
Hongkonger