Wanted to type in chinese but something is wrong with it, it doesn't present any option of characters. Too bad for me.

Anyhow, i had a random thought of wouldn't it be nice that we can all start over again? Able to "erase" the past and start a whole new life, being able to be someone you always wanted yourself to be? Be in a place where nobody knows you, so that even you make a mistake you've made a million time, nobody will blame it on you? Because it is the "first" time you made it. And you get a different kind of treatment from those who had witness you doing that mistake over and over again. With that kind of treatment, you are motivated to change your mistake because you want that kind of tender to always remain.

When it became a kind of habit to think being unsuccessful is so normal because your friends and family had never thought you would go far. When you finally did it, they give you no encouragement, instead, they say "This is the first time, let's see if you can go further." Yes this can be a kind of encouragement, but don't you agree that this sentence convey a different message that says you are not convinced that i would put that much effort?

Because they have seen your past and that mindset had already found a holding place somewhere in their head. So when you do something similar to the previous incident, it immediately activate that perceptive that registered earlier on. Then again, as much explanations changes nothing.

Sadly to say, all this unpleasantness falls on all mankind. Me and you.

Nicole Christine Au
Eleven December 1987
Hongkonger