So my mum left this morning without waking me up even after i told her to because i want to send her off. But i guess she doesn't want me to and i feel it's selfish of her because i didn't get the chance to be the last one who see her before she leave for hongkong. I think i am getting very sensitive over this mother issue because right when sherry mentioned about my mum during our conversation just now, i can't help but tear again. Laugh all you want if you finds me childish i don't care. I just miss my mum now and i badly want her to come back right now.

I don't know why but i seriously can't stand lonliness. My brother told me that he wouldn't be home for dinner tonight and he might be come home very late. Gosh, the fear of lonliness is creeping into me just as i type the previous sentence. ARG, i don't want to go through life like this and i hate to.

Why isn't my dad here with me? Why is it that my relationship with my brother is not that strong enough to let him stay at home or at lease come home early cos i am afraid to be alone at home at night? WHY WHY WHY WHY

I just can't wait for Stacey to come over so then she can keep me accompany at night, but that wouldn't be soon i guess.

Labels: i hate being alone

Nicole Christine Au
Eleven December 1987
Hongkonger