Thank you for everyone who stood by me at this time.

LIMKARMUN!!
To you, i cannot find any words to describe my graditude towards you. In my best and Lowest time, you are ALWAYS here. I am sorry for throwing tantrum at you, but you were never really mad at me about that. So i really thank god for such a great friend like you who is so understanding towards me. Somehow, you are someone whom i am really comfortable telling everything to. Because you know me inside out, outside in, upside down, downside up. k k k k , WHY? must go so deep not? kkk. OKAYY!!

So what i want to say is. I LOVE YOU!!

MATTHEW IAN AU
I know that you really love me, and i love you too. Maybe it is the way our mother brought us up that we are not really that verbally expressive towards each other. But i am glad that our relationship improved so much, compared to the past when we don't even talked to each other. And that we don't even adknowledge each other when we bump into each other in town. On sundays, we will leave the house seperately and even if we met each other in the busstop, we will pretend as though we don't know each other, sit seperately in the bus too. When at the end of the day, we are going to the same place sitting at the same table. How lame can we get? So now that i think back, i really should thank god for improving our relationship. =)) Although you always deny it when mum says it but i know that you really are concerned about me. So i want to thank you for making so many sacrifises for me and the family.

This might be the most difficult time to go through, when so many things happened in such a short time. But i guess i know why did it all happened. I know that this is all GOD's plan. That he want me to turn to him and seek him for a way. He knows that i am really a little taken back when i came to know all the things i will be learning and go through in nursing and knowing my character, i might want to give up in between. So he wants me to take a break first, by giving me time to get ready for nursing. And now that i haven been paying my phone bill for so long, he wants me to take this few month's time to work and pay it off so that i wouldn't feel so burdened. And now that i am not able to take this calling for the moment, I think he wants me to think carefully and let me know how much i want this so that when i get back to school, i will really cherish the chance.

So now that i know his plan for me, that he is planning it so wisely and sensitively to my needs, what more reason should i give to reject him and kept giving myself excuses not to go church?

Labels: God is still the one at the end of the day

Nicole Christine Au
Eleven December 1987
Hongkonger