MICHELLE : I HATE YOU!!
ME: WHY??
MICHELL: GRR
ME: ?? YOU OKAYY?? I NEVER DO ANYTHING WHAT
MICHELL: EXACTLY
ME: (CALL HER)
MICHELLE: (PICK UP AND PUT DOWN)
MICHELLE: SHIT ACCIDENTALLY ANSWERED, I SLEEPING
ME: (CALL AGAIN)
MICHELLE: (REJECT CALL)
MI: AY, NOT FUNNY. AT LEASE TELL ME WHY YOU HATE ME
MICHELLE: WHY YOU SO UPTIGHT???
ME: COS YOU HATE ME FOR NOTHING
MICHELLE: SO???
ME: SO LA TI DO, TELL ME WHY
MICHELLE: (SLEEP ALREADY)

?????????? I HONESTLY DONT KNOW WHAT HAPPEN SO DONT ASK ME. HAHAHA.

ANYHOW, MET PAPA FOR LUNCH THINKING HE WILL GIVE ME MONEY. BUT!!!!! HE GAVE ME $10 ONLY!! WTF!! AND NOW, I'M TOTALLY BROKE. LEFT WITH ZERO CENT. FUCK!!

I WONDER WHEN ARE THEY GOING TO CALL ME TO GO DOWN FOR WORK. I MEAN, I'M VERY SICK AND TIRED OF SLACKING EVREYDAY OKAYY. ACTUALLY, I WANT TO WORK SO I CAN GET MONEY ONLY. WHATEVER MAN. HAHA. I'M BORED. REALLY. FEELING SO SIANZZZ ABOUT EVERYTHING.

MAMA'S NOT AT HOME AGAIN COS SHE'S OVER AT TZU CHI FOR SOME CAMP THINGY. WHATEVER MAN. WHY NTO SHE JUST MOVE THERE?? I'M FEELING AS THOUGH I'M LOSING MY MAMA. EVER SINCE SHE'S BACK, WE HAVEN BEEN REALLY TALKING. AS IN, SHE'S ALWAYS OUT WHEN I'M AT HOME AND I'M ALWAYS OUT WITH SHE'S HOME. AND I DONT SEE MY BROTHER OFTEN TOO. LET ALONE MY FATHER, SEE HIM ONLY ONCE A WEEK. WHATEVER.

FAMILY = Father And Mother I Love You??

i miss 2004's birthday. cos that was the only time i had my complete family dinner. with my dad coming over to my house and have steamboat together. from left; my daddy, my brother, me and my mama. tho they never really talked but you know. ah, i know this passsage is like, so emo but i dont care la. i'm a girl after all. so, i really feel like crying now. i want a family, i want to live in a house with my daddy, mummy and my brother living together happily. i want people asking me "nicole, want to go for dinner tonight??" and i will answer them "sorry i cant, cos my dad's bringing us out for dinner."

forget it. it's birthday blues.

Nicole Christine Au
Eleven December 1987
Hongkonger